My Heart Can Be a Liar

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There’s this person I had in my life for the longest time. We were inseparable, like sisters but more, and most of all I loved her but I didn’t know it at the time. She used to steal me away from my house and we would go all sorts of places around town. Or sometimes I’d go with her and we would just run errands and shuffle her little brother around with us. We could sit with one another watching horror movie after horror on the big screen in the basement with our laptops on our lap messaging each other because we didn’t want to break the silence. And maybe it was the fact that I was naive to my own feelings that made her leave. Maybe it was that she was afraid to love me back. Maybe I was just a high school fling. Maybe I was the only one who would be around her that appreciated her company all the time and I was just used till she could go off to a different state college and learn that I wasn’t the only one who liked her and could dump me. Maybe the excuses I make for her in my head are all wrong. Whichever reason she had doesn’t matter so much that she’s gone. And I know somewhere in my heart I’ll miss her always.